Last week vs. this week

Woo!  Clarinet rocks!

Not sure what happened between last week and this week, but I am so not motivated.  Last week, I got back from DC, I had this crazy, unexplainable drive to get better at clarinet, and I was even back in the practice room 2 days after the audition.  I had a good few days of nice, solid practice.  It was great!

This week has been a different story.  For some reason, I haven't been motivated to do anything!  I just want to lay around and take a nap.  And its not just with practicing clarinet - I'm feeling it in all aspects of my life.  I think its the weather and the lack of sunshine/warmness.  Or something like that.  I tried to practice Monday and Tuesday of this week, but ultimately didn't enjoy any minute of it, either day.  I managed to get in an hour yesterday of reed working, but that was it.  Today, I ask myself, why am I stressing about this?  I don't have anything to prepare for, and whatever endurance I maintain/obtain in the next three months is going to go completely out the window in May when I am forced to go without my instrument for two months during boot camp.  That is the longest I will have ever gone without playing, EVER!  (well besides my pre-clarinet days)  The longest so far is just a month during the weeks before and after my wedding.

So my logic is, if I don't have anything to practice for, why even bother forcing myself to practice when I so clearly do not want to?  So this is how its going to be: I'm only going to practice when I feel like it.  I have already passed my audition, and I'm sure everyone totally sucks when they get to the music school.  What more do I need to do?  Right now I need to focus on getting ready for the Navy and boot camp.  Oh and I also set a goal of doing a half marathon before I go.  Yeah, I'm crazy, but whatever.

Anyway, on that note, I'm going to go be lazy and play video games for the rest of the night.  Peace out!